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May 29, 2019

The Sanctuary of Catching a Wave

  Catching a Wave
 
In early summer, the wind pushes through
the tops of elms and dapples the road
below.
It whips the pastures into waves,
the grasses rolling surely
upon the shore of summer.
 
This is high tide,
and my heart swells.
What once was dark and brittle
is now a happy vapor, a lemon trifle,
a lark.
Oh, that I might sing the wind’s songs,
that I might live in the land of lilac
where prayers are always fragrant,
always weightless.
 
I grow old.
But today, I feel like riding the waves
of May apple and merrybells.
I feel as though I may go beyond the breakers--
beyond the shoal of age--
into bright danger.
 
Today, I think I will leave the shallows
where I have hidden among the rocks.
Here, as I am swept out of myself,
I will scatter my 63 years, like shells,
across the sand.

And then,
I will catch the closest wave
and ride hard with the wind.
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2 Comments

  • Brian Schrack

    Shannon, your words touched something inside me today in a way that I don’t completely understand. I guess I feel I have grown old and I yearn to leave the shallows where I have been forced to hideout, trapped by a failed heart that no longer wants to go along for the ride. But, I have hope that with faith, I can scatter my 64 years across the sands, and catch the closet wave and ride hard with the wind…. Thanks for your beautiful words of inspiration.

    May 29, 2019 at 9:50 pm Reply
    • veselyss11@gmail.com

      Brian,
      I don’t completely understand what is happening to me as I age either. I can’t imagine all that you have suffered through surgeries, recoveries, and the feeling of being trapped inside an aging, failing body. Though I’ve been fortunate to have relatively good physical health, I’ve been trapped in a marriage in which I’ve tried, for years, to be someone else. Having realized that I can’t be who I am not, I long to leave the shallows of condemnation and strike out for something truer and better. And I’m trying to do this without leaving my home and marriage. Needless to say, it’s a daily struggle, but one that I’m convicted to embrace, for my grandchildren live 50 yards from me. Living here, I get to share in their lives daily. That is a blessing, indeed. Thanks for your words of encouragement. Some days in my mind, I’m still 16. I still greet each day with the same anticipation and joy I did then. That’s something.

      June 7, 2019 at 2:02 pm Reply

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