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November 12, 2016

A Second Letter to Myself

 John 11: 21-25

 “Lord,” Martha said to Jesus, “if you had been here, my brother would not have died.  But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask.”

 Jesus said to her, “Your brother will rise again.”

 Martha answered, “I know he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day.”

 Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?”

Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”

John 11:41-44

So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, “Father, I thank you that you have heard me. I knew that you always hear me, but I said this for the benefit of the people standing here, that they may believe that you sent me.”

When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face.

Jesus said to them, “Take off the grave clothes and let him go.”

 

Dear Shannon:

Do you remember Lazarus? Can you feel the grief of his sisters, their brother sealed in the darkness of death? As you grieve today–for whatever or whomever–will you not take off your grave clothes? Will you not go into the world with my promise of resurrected life, resurrected hope, and everlasting mercy? Will you not follow Me, for I am the resurrection and the life.

And will you not remember your own words, the story of a boy named Lazarus born in another continent, in another time, and resurrected into new life? There are resurrections all around you, Shannon, if you will have but eyes to see. Remember this and live the life I have promised you. Abundantly, surely, freely.

With love,

Jesus

 

Lazarus
The day you were born,

your mother labored for hours before

your father returned from the fields

at dusk.

 

In the near dark,

he was met by two goats,

a flock of guinea hens,

and an old woman from the village.

 

Tucked in the crook of her arm:

a brown bundle.

“A boy,” she announced,

and your father unwrapped the rice sackcloth that covered you

to find two fists, like sleeping snails,

pressed against your face

and a mouth, sucking air.

 

As he moved to enter the hut, though,

the old woman blocked the door,

tried to press you into his arms and said,

“She’s gone.”

 

But your father did not take you.

Instead, he left the way he came,

losing himself in the maize at twilight.

 

Seeing this,

the old woman closed the door to your hut

and began the slow walk up the mountain.

 

When she could only see shadows and shapes in the dark—

wild baboons or spirits—

she found the clearing.

There, according to tribal custom,

she placed you on a ridge of flat, gray stone:

an ancient altar of sacrifice.

 

Before she left,

she spoke your name into the night

then disappeared into the village of evening fires and voices

below.

 

Your eyes drank in the dark,

and you were not afraid.

 

Moments later, the missionary who had followed,

keeping a safe distance behind,

crept from the iroko trees,

took you in her arms,

and ran.

 

No one knows how far or how long she ran.

But she ran.

Until somewhere at sometime,

she stopped

and found her way back to Jalingo,

to husband and home.

 

And there, in the corner of her sleeping room,

in the cradle she slept in as a baby,

she covered you with hope

and spoke your name into life:

Lazarus.

 

***This story is based on a true account that I heard while I was in Africa. The missionary, a quiet, faithful                    Nigerian woman, was our guide and host for our time there. Her son flourishes in a loving home. 

 

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November 8, 2016

A Letter to Myself and Fellow Believers

Dear Shannon and Fellow Believers:

Do you remember the woman caught in adultery? The woman whom the teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought to me? The woman who stood in the midst of her judges and executioners, her life and her heart in her hands. The woman whose sins had become public, naming her shame and reducing her to yet another case to be tried by the Law. That woman.

And do you remember that in the midst of those self-righteous men, I knelt and began to write in the sand? Still, these angry men persisted, clenching stones in their trembling fists, their eyes without light. It was then that I stopped writing, stood, and said, Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.

I knelt again, tracing words in the sand, waiting. One by one, these men left, leaving only the woman in my presence. And do you remember my words to her? Has no one condemned you? Then neither do I condemn you. Go now and leave your life of sin.

I want you to remember my words today as you elect a new leader for your country. There have been many who have condemned these candidates, and there will be just as many who will continue their condemnation regardless of the outcome. If either candidate was brought before me, my words would be the same today as they were that day when I knelt in the sand.

Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her or him. Has no one condemned you? Then neither do I condemn you. Go now and leave your life of sin. 

You know that condemnation is quick and easy. It has filled your airwaves, your mailboxes, and your conversations. Today, and in the days to come, I ask you to examine your own hearts before you pick up a stone. Today, and the days to come, I will not condemn this man or woman, but I will charge them with sinning no more. As leaders and those who claim to believe in Me, I will convict them to live and lead justly and mercifully, as I would, as I have commanded.

And you? I charge you with lovingly, but consciously, holding them accountable for their promises and–more importantly–for following Me. (And just in case I need to spell this out, holding leaders accountable does not include rioting, speaking in hatred, threatening, or giving ultimatums. If you need help in this regard, look to my servant, Martin Luther King Jr. He knew how to hold to righteous convictions without resorting to violence. He got it right.)

Continue to pray for your leaders and your country. Pray for your own mercy and discernment. And hold fast, always, to my promise: In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

In love,

Jesus

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November 7, 2016

The Sanctuary of Hillbilly, Part 3, A Culture in Crisis

J. D. Vance, like many–including me–see a culture in crisis. Towards the end of Hillbilly Elegy, he cites a study from The Pew Economic Mobility Project in which they examined how Americans evaluated their economic futures and prospects. He writes:

There is no group of Americans more pessimistic than working-class whites. Well over half of blacks, Latinos, and college-educated whites expect that their children will fare better economically than they have. Among working-class whites, only 44 percent share that expectation. Even more surprising, 42 percent of working-class whites—by far the highest number in the survey—report that their lives are less economically successful than those of their parents’.

No group of Americans more pessimistic than working-class whites? Contrary to what most Americans undoubtedly believe, the pessimism, the malaise, and the sense of futility that pervades the working-class whites are even more significant than that of other groups. In the past decade of my teaching career, I have witnessed many Latino parents (mother and father) faithfully attend parent teacher conferences. Even when language barriers prevented us from communicating with more than a few words, their hope for their children’s future and their steadfast belief that this future would be better than theirs was palpably evident.

I wish I could say the same about most of the white working-class poor students and their parents. If a parent or guardian attended conferences, it was generally just one. A mother, usually–sometimes a father or grandparent. I recall a conference with a mother of one of my male students in which I had to tell her that her son was failing because he simply couldn’t stay awake in class. He slept daily, his hood pulled over his head, which rested squarely on the flat of his desk. He drooled and sometimes snored. His mother grinned and said, “You know, I can’t keep him awake at home either. He likes to play video games late into the night.” What was I to say to a woman who refused to parent her own son, to set reasonable limits on computer use, or–if all else failed–to literally pull the plug? When I asked what her son’s plans after high school graduation were, again she grinned, shrugged her shoulders, and said, “I don’t know.” I’m sure that she didn’t, and I’m sure that her son hadn’t thought much beyond purchasing his next video game or beating the next level on his current game.

As a second semester junior with a single parent on a limited income, my student had real opportunities for post-secondary education: scholarships for those with legitimate need, assistance securing and completing his financial aid forms, academic counseling and scheduling of classes, grants–not loans–and continued financial and academic support in the college he would attend. And yet, he would essentially thumb his nose at all of these, choosing instead to remain with his mother, sleep during the day, and play video games at night. Neither he nor his mother believed that he would live a life that was more economically successful than his parent’s. In truth, neither gave much thought to the future at all.

Vance laments the futility and instability present in many working-class poor homes. He describes the extent of this instability in his book:

By almost any measure, American working-class families experience a level of instability unseen elsewhere in the world. Consider, for instance, Mom’s revolving door of father figures. No other country experiences anything like this. In France, the percentage of children exposed to three or more maternal partners is 0.5 percent—about one in two hundred. The second highest share is 2.6 percent, in Sweden, or about one in forty. In the United States, the figure is a shocking 8.2 percent—about one in twelve—and the figure is even higher in the working class.

Ultimately, he claims that  “Chaos begets chaos. Instability begets instability. Welcome to family life for the American hillbilly.” And, as a natural consequence, welcome to life in many communities, businesses, health and social service agencies, schools, etc.

This chaos, Vance explains, is often the cause of what psychologists currently call ACEs, “adverse childhood experiences.” These are traumatic childhood events, physical, psychological and/or emotional, whose effects last long into adulthood. Vance identifies some of the most common ACEs:

  • Being sworn at, insulted, or humiliated by parents
  • Being pushed, grabbed, or having something thrown at you
  • Feeling that your family didn’t support each other
  • Having parents who were separated or divorced
  • Living with an alcoholic or a drug user
  • Living with someone who was depressed or attempted suicide
  • Watching a loved one be physically abused

You don’t have to be a psychologist or expert to recognize the pervasive presence of ACEs in lives all around you. Nor do you have to be a pediatrician or medical specialist to see the consequences of such childhood trauma on cognitive and emotional development. Vance explains that he and his sister were casualties of many ACEs, which resulted in a “fight or flight” response to any type of conflict. When I think of the countless students I’ve had over the course of my career, there were far too many that, like Vance, either fought their way out of conflict or simply ran away. In either case, it goes without saying that it was difficult–if not impossible–to teach such students. And most days, I’m ashamed to say, it was difficult to like and care for them.

To conclude his book, Vance writes:

People sometimes ask whether I think there’s anything we can do to “solve” the problems of my community. I know what they’re looking for: a magical public policy solution or an innovation government program. But these problems of family, faith, and culture aren’t like a Rubik’s Cube, and I don’t think that solutions (as most understand the term) really exist. A good friend, who worked for a time in the White House and cares deeply about the plight of the working class, once told me, “The best way to look at this might be to recognize that you probably can’t fix these things. They’ll always be around. But maybe you can put your thumb on the scale a little for the people at the margins.”

In his own life, Vance admits that “there were many thumbs put on my scale”: his Mamaw and Papaw, his Aunt Wee and her family, his sister, Lindsay, his mother (in spite of her drug addiction, she instilled the value of education in him), the men in his mother’s lives (who came and went but were generally kind), and countless teachers, friends, and community members. Vance credits these individuals with helping him defy the hillbilly odds: graduation from Yale Law School, marriage, and meaningful, stable employment.

After talking with his former high school teachers, Vance writes: “So I think that any successful policy program would recognize what my old high school’s teachers see every day: that the real problem for so many of these kids is what happens (or doesn’t happen) at home.”

And there it is: the proverbial elephant in the room. While many have turned to teachers, social workers, government agents and agencies as whipping boys for the crisis in our culture, there are far too few who have been willing to look to the dissolution of the family as the most significant cause of the chaos, instability, and futility that threatens the very culture in which many of us have flourished. The very culture that, for all its warts, is still the legacy that most of us hope to leave our children and their children.

Ultimately, Vance claims that “we hillbillies are the toughest goddamned people on this earth.” And then he asks if hillbilllies are tough enough to care for their own, those who are often left without love or support, if they are tough enough to “build a church that forces kids like me to engage with the world rather than withdraw from it,”and if they are tough enough to “look ourselves in the mirror and admit that our conduct harms our children.”

We all would do well to ask ourselves these same questions, for it will take tough individuals to save a culture in crisis. I admire and respect J. D. Vance more than I can say. In the fallen world in which we live, he recognizes the fallibility of human nature, the sin of learned helplessness, addictions, indulgences, and blame. He understands the power and necessity of human agency, for if individuals cannot see themselves as agents of change–in their own lives and their culture–we are essentially throwing in the towel and calling our culture dead. Time of death: imminent.

Vance argues that “public policy can help, but there is no government that can fix these problems for us.” He proposes that hillbillies need to “stop blaming Obama or Bush or faceless companies and ask ourselves what we can do to make things better.”  Finally, he asks that as hillbillies look inwardly to help themselves, others look outwardly, beyond themselves and their situations, to genuinely understand the real challenges that face hillbillies like him. And then to act with compassion and urgency.

Regardless of who becomes our next president, this cultural battle will ultimately be won or lost by individuals like me. Like you. Because we are in the trenches daily. And, like it or not, we have been called to fight. At the very least, we have been called to put our thumb[s] on the scale a little for the people at the margins.

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November 6, 2016

The Sanctuary of Hillbilly, Part 2

Obviously, the idea that there aren’t structural barriers facing both the white and black poor is ridiculous.  Mamaw recognized that our lives were harder than rich white people, but she always tempered her recognition of the barriers with a hard-noses willfulness: “never be like those a–holes who think the deck is stacked against them.”  In hindsight, she was this incredibly perceptive woman.  She recognized the message my environment had for me, and she actively fought against it.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             J.D. Vance in an interview with Rod Dreher, The American Conservative, July 22, 2016

The dedication at the front of J.D. Vance’s Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and a Culture in Crisis reads: For Mamaw and Papaw, my very own hillbilly terminators

Now a former Marine and Yale Law School graduate, Vance recognizes the need for hillbilly terminators like his Mamaw and Papaw in a culture that nutures, accepts, and–tragically–promotes victimhood. “Never be like those a-holes who think the deck is stacked against them,” his Mamaw admonished him. With the presidential election only days away, if it were possible–and Vance’s Mamaw were still living–I would run her campaign for President of the United States. Now she would be a remarkable first female president. Preach it, Mamaw, preach it.

Vance’s grandmother understood, all too well, the challenges facing her family. And yet, as matriach, she provided a faithful foundation for her family, grounding their love with fierce love and loyalty. She refused to see herself or her family as victims of a deck that was stacked against them. Through the years of what Vance called a “revolving door of father figures,” Mamaw was always there, opening her door and her heart to Vance, his sister, and others.

Still, in his memoir, Vance laments that he “hated the disruption,” “hated how often these boyfriends would walk out of my life just as I’d begun to like them.” As a result, he reports that he and his sister never learned how men should treat women. He writes that his sister once confided “men will disappear at the drop of a hat. They don’t care about their kids; they don’t provide; they just disappear, and its not that hard to make them go.”

As I read through Vance’s mother’s history of husbands and boyfriends who came and went, I could not help see the faces of countless students I have had over the course of my career. In one of the my senior high school classes, one of my students told me that he was dreading his graduation ceremony. When I asked why, he said, “If it rains, and we have to hold graduation in the gym, they will issue each student six tickets. Then, my mom and my dad–who are divorced–will fight over who gets the tickets. It will be an awful mess, and I just don’t want to deal with it.”

Like Vance, many of my students live in environments in which constant fighting, criticizing, screaming, and threatening are standard fare. Like Vance, these students split their time, their possessions, and their hearts between a mother and a father who may not even speak to each other. They leave their math book in their father’s car and report that they will not be able to get it for two weeks; they fail to finish their essay because they were left to cook, bathe, and watch over their siblings while their mother goes out with friends. This is their life, such that it is.

In Hillbilly Elegy, Vance writes, “We don’t study as children, and we don’t make our kids study when we’re parents. Our kids perform poorly in school. We might get angry with them, but we never give them the tools—like peace and quiet at home—to succeed.” When he returned to his Ohio hometown, he talked with one of his high school teachers who admitted that “They want us to be shepherds to these kids. But no one wants to talk about the fact that many of them are raised by wolves.”

I can personally testify to teachers who have spent their careers trying to shepherd students who have been “raised by wolves.” There is no instructional strategy, no educational incentive, no amount of time or effort that can effectively erase the damage done by wolves. Don’t misunderstand me: I have endorsed and promoted strategies, incentives, and relationships in hopes of making a real difference in students’ lives. Undoubtedly, there is work to be done to improve our schools. What I truly appreciate about Vance’s memoir, however, is that he refuses to blame teachers and schools for the failure of many students to graduate, to pursue lives, educational opportunities, and careers beyond their communities and beyond the expectations of their working class poor families.

Honestly, I wish more politicians, educational “experts”, reporters, and citizens would take an honest look at the baggage that many kids bring with them to school. And then I wish they would spend a week, a month–better yet an entire semester–trying their hand at removing this baggage and turning these kids’ lives around. These individuals are those who have criticized teachers, have told them how to fix these students’ educational and personal problems, so I’d like to watch them at work. Walk a mile in teachers’ shoes. Walk a mile in social workers’ shoes. Even better, walk a mile in the shoes of the poor. Take up the mantle of their lives. Live within their barriers.

Vance writes:

If you believe that hard work pays off, then you work hard; if you think it’s hard to get ahead even when you try, then why try at all? Similarly, when people do fail, this mind-set allows them to look outward. I once ran into an old acquaintance at a Middletown bar who told me that he had recently quit his job because he was sick of waking up early. I later saw him complaining on Facebook about the “Obama economy” and how it had affected his life. I don’t doubt that the Obama economy has affected many, but this man is assuredly not among them. His status in life is directly attributable to the choices he’s made, and his life will improve only through better decisions. But for him to make better choices, he needs to live in an environment that forces him to ask tough questions about himself. There is a cultural movement in the white working class to blame problems on society or the government, and that movement gains adherents by the day.

 A cultural movement in the white working class to blame problems on society or the government? A movement that gains adherents by the day? Oh yeah. If the society, the government, the schools, the police, the employers are to blame, then how easy it becomes to claim victim status. How easy to turn outward when you might first turn inward. How convenient to quit because you are sick of waking up early, of being asked to put your cell phone away, of actually having to work.

Again, I am aware of the real limitations facing many of the working class poor, the hillbillies and rednecks. Over the years, however, I have questioned whether or not our entitlements are truly helping. Vance’s words ring true for me, for I have had countless students look me squarely in the face and refuse to work, refuse to even try. Even when they are physically in class, they are neither mentally nor emotionally there. And yet they expect to pass, to graduate with their peers, to essentially get something for nothing. Because, as they glibly remind us, we owe them. A lot.

Many of these students have never experienced the genuine joy and authentic sense of purpose found in meaningful work. My fear is that most never will. They are being entitled to depend on others, most of whom are middle class individuals who will work hard for their own children and for others’ children. They are learning and embracing helplessness. And they are becoming particularly good at this.

In Hillbilly Elegy, Vance elaborates on this helplessness:

Psychologists call it “learned helplessness” when a person believes, as I did during my youth, that the choices I made had no effect on the outcomes in my life. From Middletown’s world of small expectations to the constant chaos of our home, life had taught me that I had no control. Mamaw and Papaw had saved me from succumbing entirely to that notion, and the Marine Corps broke new ground. If I had learned helplessness at home, the Marines were teaching learned willfulness.

Learned willfulness. I like that. Imagine a society in which we committed our time and resources to promoting and teaching learned willfulness. I can imagine it, although I am painfully aware that many in our current culture would find such work discriminatory and altogether unfair. It is interesting that Vance identifies the mores of his grandparents, clearly members of the working poor, but members who held different values than other working class poor. He writes:

Not all of the white working class struggles. I knew even as a child that there were two separate sets of mores and social pressures. My grandparents embodied one type: old-fashioned, quietly faithful, self-reliant, hardworking. My mother and, increasingly, the entire neighborhood embodied another: consumerist, isolated, angry, distrustful.

Depression era stories are peopled with individuals like Vance’s Mamaw and Papaw. My great grandparents, grandparents, and parents began their lives as working class poor. They were, as Vance writes, quietly faithful, self-reliant, hardworking. Certainly, there are individuals like this today. We just don’t hear much about them, for the stories of the consumerist, isolated, angry, and distrustful abound. They dominate the news and drive political, social, and educational policy.

In his interview with Rod Dreher, Vance said:

The refusal to talk about individual agency is in some ways a consequence of a very detached elite, one too afraid to judge and consequently too handicapped to really understand. At the same time, poor people don’t like to be judged, and a little bit of recognition that life has been unfair to them goes a long way. […] But there’s this weird refusal to deal with the poor as moral agents in their own right.

Perhaps we would all do well to compassionately and conscientiously find ways to deal with the poor as moral agents in their own right rather than romanticizing and stereotyping them. It goes without saying that this would be much more difficult–emotionally, socially, educationally, and politically. It would be messier and more personal. And above all, it would require people of faith to seriously examine the “help” they provide and fail to provide.

In the Part 3 of The Sanctuary of Hillbilly, I will share J. D. Vance’s suggestions for “helping” the working class poor.

 

Vance, J. D. (2016). Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis. HarperCollins.

 

 

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November 2, 2016

The Sanctuary of Hillbilly, Part 1

 

I took the photo above about a half mile from my home near Ottumwa, Iowa. I’ll concede that I live in southern Iowa and that there are a few who fly Confederate flags (the vast minority, trust me). But this is Iowa–not the Appalachians, not the South. Still, we are no strangers to hillbillies.

Hillbilly: an unsophisticated country person, associated originally with the remote regions of the Appalachians

The official definition identifies the unsophisticated country person. Think Jed Clampett, Granny, Jethro, and Ellie Mae of the Beverly Hillbillies. Think squirrel stew, moonshine, and corn cob pipes. Backwards, backwoods folk who use words like vittles, reckon, fixin’ to, and hankerin’ for.

Truthfully, I’ve been taken for a hillbilly–of sorts. When I moved to Wisconsin, my high schools students were not sure how to take me. They marveled at the way I spoke, asking me to repeat words and phrases and barely containing their amusement when I did. After a few weeks, a sophomore student blurted out, “You’re kind of a hillbilly, aren’t you? You’re from the South, right?” I simply smiled and said, “A hillbilly? From the South? Um, not quite. I’m from Nebraska.” He persisted. “But you talk like one. You say ant instead of aunt (the more pretentious sounding awnt, characteristic of those who live the upper Midwest). You say water fountain instead of bubbler and pop instead of soda. That’s pretty hillbilly, if you ask me.”

When I eventually convinced my students that I was, indeed, a Midwesterner and neither a hillbilly nor a Southerner, they grudgingly replaced their Ellie Mae Clampett image of me with a Laura Ingalls Wilder one from Little House on the Prairie. Most certainly, I had lived in a sod house, taken the family vehicle, a Conestoga wagon, to the kinfolk’s place, and ridden my pony five miles to school. Certainly, I was the only authentic pioneer they would ever know. And certainly, I was now displaced and living among the truly cultured Northerners.

When I moved to southern Iowa, I foolishly thought my hillbilly days were behind me. Not so. Months into my Iowa life, I became painfully aware of the geographic and cultural boundary created by Interstate 80. North of I-80? The territory of the more cultured, the more educated, the more professional folk. South of I-80? The less cultured, the less educated, and the less professional folk. After all, living in southern Iowa is tantamount to living in Missouri, which–we all know–is tantamount to living in Arkansas. Move over Jed Clamplitt. The southern Iowans are fixin’ to take their place in the halls of hillbilly annals.

Each morning as I walk by this abandoned property, I find it difficult not to look, once again, at the tangible reminder of hillbilly angst: Down with the Union, with Yankee bankers, law enforcement, and government.  It is equally difficult to look away from the remnants of a life, of the people who once called this place their home.

 

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The whole has lost its essential parts. A splintered jumble of foundation sits unmoored from its former life. An abandoned Crown Victoria, a couch that oozes its remaining stuffing, twisted metal frames of appliances, and trash that has survived the elements give testimony to loss. But to Yankee injustice?

The Sanctuary of Hillbilly, no longer contained in the hills and hollers of Appalacia, provides its residents with a certain mantle of protection against self-reflection and against ownership of consequences which too often are the result of personal choices but which may be written off, self-righteously, as the doings of damn Yankees.

Today, the Sanctuary of Hillbilly has less to do with geography and much more to do with other, equally influential factors: culture, economy, and heritage. I do not use the word sanctuary lightly or facetiously here, for hillbillies–self-proclaimed or otherwise–may take real solace in their hillbilly status, in living among their kind. High school boys who flaunt rebel bumper stickers revel in the camaraderie they find with others who flaunt such rebel signs. Boys who have never ventured farther south than the Iowa-Missouri line boast as if Confederate and/or hill blood runs deep in their veins. Undoubtedly, these are boys who have dabbled in making their own home brews, the evidence of their parties hidden in the hollows of rural southern Iowa.

A visit to one of my favorite flea markets in Rutledge, Missouri is a visit to hillbilly heaven. Shirtless men wearing bib overalls ride four-wheelers, Red Man dribbling down their chins, and chickens tucked under their arms. Their women sit beside them, holding barefoot children or scruffy dogs. For the genuine flea market picker, Rutledge is the real deal: dirt roads, vendors selling exotic fowl next to vendors selling Depression glass, tenderloins the size of dinner plates, and rows upon rows of rusted metal. Oh, there are “nicer”, more civilized flea markets for city folk, but Rutledge is an initiation into the Sanctuary of Hillbilly.

At Rutledge, you can make a good deal on almost anything. Its vendors are there to sell, and their wares offer a virtual cornucopia of stuff. At Rutledge, you can make a friend–or two. You can strike up a conversation with someone you have never seen before and, within minutes, settle into the easy conversation of friends. In truth, Rutledge is less a place than an experience. Seasoned vendors and buyers understand that this experience cannot be duplicated by other upscale flea markets. And they understand that most who visit once will come again, season after season. This is the draw of such hillbilly hospitality: a repeat visit makes you family.

Recently, I read J. D. Vance’s New York Times best selling book, Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis. Actually, I listened to it first and bought the book later. Vance’s voice–his real and writer’s voice–drew me in quickly. This is a book I wholeheartedly recommend, a book I find myself thinking about daily. Vance’s boyhood hillbilly roots begin in southeastern Kentucky but settle in a poor Rust Belt town in Ohio. In post WWII America, many Kentucky hillbillies migrated north in search of better work and better lives. Vance’s grandparents were no exception.

In the introduction to Hillbilly Elegy, Vance writes:

In our race-conscious society, our vocabulary often extends no further than the color of someone’s skin–“black people,” “Asians,” “white privilege.” Sometimes these broad categories are useful, but to understand my story, you have to delve into the details. I may be white, but I do not identify with the WASPs of the Northeast. Instead, I identify with the millions of working-class white Americans of Scots-Irish descent who have no college degree. To these folks, poverty is the family tradition–their ancestors were day laborers in the southern slave economy, share-croppers after that, coal miners after that, and machinists and millworkers during more recent times. Americans call them hillbillies, rednecks, or white trash. I call them neighbors, friends, and family. 

Hillbillies, rednecks or white trash, neighbors, friends, and family. Vance’s memoir examines all that it means to be hillbilly and the painful, but inevitable, consequences of working-class white culture in America today. In Part 2 of the Sanctuary of Hillbilly, I will share some of Vance’s most profound insights.

 

Vance, J. D. (2016). Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis. HarperCollins.

 

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October 20, 2016

The Sanctuary of a Milkweed Pod

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Illustration by Patterson Clark. The New York Times

 

The Milkweed Pod
for Don Welch

The milkweed pod,
having spent itself through summer months,
explodes.
Its summer soul has burst.
The cocoon of its husk
looses fine, white floss into the air,
autumn’s lace,
its sheerest veil.

The bridegroom awaits.
He mourns not the passing colors:
the green and goldenrod,
the fields of burnished bronze.
He will not mistake his bride
in the brittle brown of this earthy shell,
will not kneel in the presence
of this absence.

For the filaments of love are whiter,
stronger cords of life than stem or stalk.
They dance where others sleep,
they sing such songs of wind and light
the world has never known.

There will be such songs in late October
when the milkweed pod opens,
giving its last breath to love,
wedding its soul to sky.

Shannon Vesely

 

 

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October 18, 2016

The Sanctuary of Juxtaposition

 

Juxtaposition: an act or instance of placing close together or side by side, especially for comparison  or contrast

Photography by Brian Schrack

Gerald Gentleman Station, Nebraska's largest coal-fired generating plant near Sutherland [background]; iron hoops signifying wagon wheels, O'Fallon's Bluff near Sutherland, National Register of Historic Places [foreground]

Gerald Gentleman Station, Nebraska’s largest coal-fired generating plant near Sutherland [background]; iron hoops signifying wagon wheels, O’Fallon’s Bluff near Sutherland, National Register of Historic Places [foreground]

 Mormon and Oregon Trail wagon ruts marked by iron hoops near Sutherland, Nebraska

Mormon and Oregon Trail wagon ruts marked by iron hoops near Sutherland, Nebraska

Gerald Gentleman Station, recognized by Platts Power magazine as the lowest cost coal-fired producer in America [near Sutherland, Nebraska]

Gerald Gentleman Station, recognized by Platts Power magazine as the lowest cost coal-fired producer in America [near Sutherland, Nebraska]

With cell phones in almost every hand or pocket, a photograph is just a point-and-click away. Social media venues host millions of photos daily. It seems that everyone is a photographer.

Of sorts, that is. For the thousands of would-be-photographers out there, there are but a few of the real deal. These are the men and women who use instinctive and learned eyes to see the photograph before they ever pick up their camera. Whereas amateurs glibly proclaim This will be a cute shot, a beautiful shot, a funny shot, the pros are asking What is the message, the memory, the feeling here? And how will I best capture this for others? They approach the view finder with a hushed reverence for light and shadow, shape and form. They kneel at the altars of perspective and balance.

Brian Schrack is the real deal, and his photography testifies to the craft he has honed for decades. This series of photographs he shot near Sutherland, Nebraska is a sublime study in juxtaposition. In the foreground, iron hoops that represent wagon wheels that left lasting ruts along the Oregon and Mormon Trails, a reminder of pioneer perseverance and vision. In the background, a coal-fired energy plant, its stacks rising formidably from the plains, a symbol of all that fuels our modern conveniences. Our eyes fix on the iron hoops and are eventually drawn to the smoke stacks behind. The juxtaposition of old to new is profoundly moving here. The power of the westward vision largely gone, the power of coal takes its place.  And the prairie survives, a persistent and holy ground, housing the remnants of the past and the structures of today.

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In the Sanctuary of Juxtaposition, we are disturbed and delighted by unlikely pairings, by unusual side-by-sides. And we must thank the artist for such juxtapositions, for our eyes do not often see them. We pass by but fail to deliberately frame the world before us. We look but fail to see.

Minnesota essayist, Philip Connors writes:

I’ve always liked edges, places where one thing becomes another. . . transition zones, boundaries, and borderlands. I like the mixing that happens, the juxtapositions, the collisions and connections. I like the way they help me see the world from a fresh angle.

Amen to that. We all need a little help from our friends, and those who can photograph, paint, and write the juxtapositions, the collisions and connections are, indeed, those who help us see the world from a fresh angle.  Those who live in The Sanctuary of Juxtaposition are fresh angles’ biggest fans.

 In  Les Misérables, Victor Hugo understands the power of fresh angles when he writes:

There were corpses here and there and pools of blood. I remember seeing a butterfly flutter up and down that street. Summer does not abdicate.

Summer does not abdicate its fluttering beauty even to death. The prairie does not abdicate its essence even to coal-fired power plants. Victor Hugo and Brian Schrack bring these messages, these fresh angles to those who have eyes to see.

Haiku writers, in particular, are masters of juxtaposition.  Traditional Japanese haiku juxtapose dissimilar images and use a kireji, or cutting word, to separate them.  English haiku writers may forgo a cutting word for a line break or pause. The effect, however, is the same, as the haiku writer brings two disparate images together, asking readers to take notice. Consider this haiku by poet John Wisdom:

harvest moon –
migrant kids eat the bread
tossed to the crows

In the foreground, the magnificent harvest moon; in the background, hungry migrant children feeding on bread crusts thrown thoughtlessly to the birds. The poet moves us to ask the universal question: How can such want exist amidst such beauty? This is the power in the Sanctuary of Juxtaposition, and haiku is but one evidential, albeit exceptional, form.

I am continually indebted to those who bring the power of juxtaposition to me through image and word. Truthfully, I am better for their fresh angles. The Sanctuary of Juxtaposition is often a challenging one, to be sure, but one we would all do well to enter–willingly and often.

With sincere thanks to Brian Schrack, who graciously granted me permission to use his photographs. 

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October 17, 2016

The Sanctuary of Autumn

 

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“I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.”
L. M. Montgomery, Ann of Green Gables

“Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower.”
Albert Camus, The Misunderstanding [Act II]

“Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall.”                                F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

“Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I  would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns.”                George Eliot, Life of George Eliot: As Related in Her Letters and Journals

“Autumn wins you best by this its mute appeal to sympathy for its decay.”  Robert Browning, Paracelsus

“Autumn…the year’s last, loveliest smile.”
William Cullen Bryant, “Indian Summer”

In mid-October, rural Iowa is awash in gold and green, russet and red, the white gauze of frost that skims the surface of grass and the white steam that rises from the pond in brief translucence at dawn. These are the glory days of autumn. And like Ann of Green Gables, I, too, am so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers. 

Today, as the temperature rises to the mid seventies, there is no hint of winter-to-come. The noon sun–almost hot enough to warrant sun screen–convinces us of a second spring when every leaf is a flower.  And even when the dusk brings a crisp chill, you feel as though you might start all over again, you might take on a new name, all burnished with golden possibilities. In the Sanctuary of Autumn, it is like this on most October days. If you were a bird, you would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns, for your heart would swell with October song.

And yet. Something in you feels the tug of time passing much too quickly, of the bittersweet reality that October flashes the year’s last, loveliest smile. The paradox of autumn is just this: glorious life with imminent decay. Robert Browning claims that Autumn wins you best by this its mute appeal to sympathy for its decay. Perhaps. In truth, I find myself increasingly sympathetic for its decay. For my decay.

If, as some claim, our lives are like seasons, clearly, at age 61, I am well into the autumn of my life. Spring and summer spent, I walk the leaf strewn paths of autumn, keenly aware of how quickly gold turns brown, crumbling all too soon into dust. After the rain, I smell the dank transformation of leaves into earth. In the Sanctuary of Autumn, sixty-somethings praise and fear all that is October.

For us, golden does have advantages over green. It permits us to speak more freely, act more boldly, and love more deeply than we were able to in our greener years. With the patina of experience and wisdom,  it rubs out the kinks and softens the scars. We settle into it gratefully, prostrating ourselves on its kind hearth.

But just as we marvel in the well-earned autumn of our souls, we lament the autumnal decay of our bodies. When it comes to bodies, green has the clear advantage. Golden is mottled with degeneration of joints and muscles and bones; golden signals the last course, the final curtain call, the end. Golden wisely warns: Don’t jump with abandon into that pile of leaves. Remember that you don’t want to have orthopedic surgery. Again. 

Shakespeare understood this impending twilight. In his Sonnet 73, “That time of year thou mayst in me behold”, he writes:

That time of year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those boughs which shake against the cold,
Bare ruined choirs, where late the sweet birds sang.
In me thou see’st the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in the west;
Which by and by black night doth take away,
Death’s second self, that seals up all in rest.
In me thou see’st the glowing of such fire,
That on the ashes of his youth doth lie,
As the deathbed whereon it must expire,
Consumed with that which it was nourished by.
This thou perceiv’st, which makes thy love more strong,
To love that well which thou must leave ere long.

In their spring and summer seasons, others can see in me the twilight of such day, the glowing of such fire, the deathbed whereon their youth must inevitably expire. But as inglorious as the impending deathbed may be, the sonneteer breaks from the first three quatrains into glorious couplet. Here, Shakespeare gives me words to live by: when we perceive the reality of our autumnal selves, we can love that well which thou must leave ere long. 

In the Sanctuary of Autumn, there is much to be said about loving well before leaving. Live like you’re dying. Live like there’s no tomorrow. It’s not how long you live but how well you live, etc. Trite and overused as they may be, we may find truth in the cliches of country western songs and greeting card verses, expressions we previously pocketed for “later”. And when “later” arrives on boughs where yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang, we are mostly surprised. When did green turn gold? When did auburn turn grey? When did the sweet songs of summer birds turn into bare ruined choirs?   When did I turn old?

Still, autumn is surprising me daily with golden gifts I could have never imagined in my youth. Gifts of time–for reflection, for play, for reading, for talking and cat-petting, for creating and re-creating. Gifts of love–of family and friends. Gifts of faith–deepened and seasoned now through age and experience. In the Sanctuary of Autumn, these are gifts for unwrapping. I plan to love them all well before they’re gone.

 

 

 

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October 12, 2016

The Sanctuary of Open

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This is the entrance to the Vesely household. In the window to the left of the front door, the sign I bought at the dollar store (as a prop for playing “store” with my grandchildren) now has a permanent spot. Thanks to Gracyn, who explained that this way we will know that you are open for us! The fact that the sign has never been flipped to announce “CLOSED” speaks volumes.

The Sanctuary of Open welcomes visitors with come in, come as you are, come often, and come again. It fries another hamburger–or many–and is never ashamed of paper plates. Its arms are always bigger than one imagines, folding others securely into the deep bosom of home. And, in the Vesely house, its dining room willingly becomes a playroom whose toys are never quite put away and lay partially assembled and ready for the next round of train station, grocery store, doll house, or camper.

Years ago in my Ottumwa church, our adult Sunday School class took a “spiritual gifts inventory.” As we considered the results of our individual surveys, no one was the least bit surprised when a senior member of our class, Ruth Rice, revealed that she had the gift of hospitality. Actually, this was one of those duh-we-could-have-told-you-this moments, for Ruth’s very pores exuded hospitality. Before and long after June Cleaver, there was Ruth: gracious, generous, hospitable, open to any and all. I remember thinking, I hope I can grow up to be a Ruth. 

Still, as good and true as the virtues of generosity and hospitality are, veteran members of the Sanctuary of Open carry discernment in their back pockets. For if Ted Bundy or John Wayne Gacy appeared at the door, they would not greet him with a plate of freshly baked cookies and a well, for heaven sakes, come in! Even Christ, the consummate model for loving openness, cautioned his disciples to be discerning as they traveled to preach the gospel:

If the home is deserving, let your peace rest on it; if it is not, let your peace return to you. If anyone will not welcome you or listen to your words, leave that home or town and shake the dust off your feet. [Matthew 10: 13-14]

Discernment is the tempering factor in the Sanctuary of Open. Its still small voice whispers: What are the rewards? What are the risks and costs? Are you willing to sacrifice? Your time, yourself, your heart and your life? Some are all too eager to shake the dust off their feet as they quickly abandon people and places, while others struggle to do so, willing themselves to give more time, more effort, and more heart in genuine openness. The Sanctuary of Open may, indeed, be a tricky place to maneuver, even for seasoned veterans.

Today, we live in a country and society that generally purports to value openness. Open communities, open schools, open borders and open minds. For the past five years, I worked in an urban high school that opens its doors and services, daily, to students from all over the world. It is not uncommon for a 17 year old student from Guatemala, Honduras, Ethiopia, or Sudan to enter as a new student in December or March or even May. It is not uncommon for this student to come with little–or no–formal schooling and no English language skills. All come with their parents’ and guardians’ sincere hopes for the better life that American education offers. All come carrying their past experiences, positive or negative as the case may be. And all are expected to graduate, meeting baccalaureate requirements, on pace with their peers.

In American schools, open means inclusion. A typical classroom, then, may host exceptional, proficient, and struggling native and non-native students, as well as students with special needs. In the spirit of inclusiveness, the teacher is charged with meeting the educational and personal needs of each and every student. Open classrooms require differentiation, tailoring instruction and assessment to individual needs. In my high school, this means that every 45 minutes for six periods a day, a new diverse group of 20-24 students arrives. The Sudanese student who has limited English and finished her last formal year of schooling when she was ten years old sits beside the National Merit finalist. The student with a significant reading disability sits beside the student who has just rebuilt his friend’s computer hard drive. And the homeless student who spent the night in his uncle’s car–and who can rarely stay awake for more than a few minutes of class–sits beside the student who is writing and illustrating her own graphic novel. And where is the teacher in this mix? He or she is taking up the gauntlet. Jim, would you wake up and join us? Juan, would you translate this for Ricardo? Please put your phone away, Carrie. Last warning. Amy and Taylor, once again, I need your attention up here. Taking up the gauntlet in the Sanctuary of Open is daunting and unrelenting. Most days, it is downright hard.

And yet, the best teachers open their classrooms, their minds and hearts in spite of the seeming futility of such unrelenting challenges. Graduate a new, previously unschooled, student who now has 18 months to learn the host language, become proficient in mathematics, social sciences, physical and life sciences, and English language arts? In our American system of open public education, the answer must be a resounding yes, knowing that each school will be held accountable for graduate rates and sanctioned if it fails to meet them yearly. 

So where is discretion in such an open educational system? It would seem that discretion would be the compassionate response to such real and individual challenges. Perhaps expecting students with genuine educational deficits, with special needs, and without native language skills to graduate on pace with their peers is neither compassionate nor realistic. Sadly, expecting bureaucrats to fully understand this reality and respond compassionately–for students and teachers alike–appears to be equally unrealistic.

The Sanctuary of Open–open communities, open schools, open homes, open minds and hearts–is a sanctuary for which to aspire. But it necessarily comes with discretionary cautions that must not be misconstrued and labeled as intolerance. Openness tempered with discretion is a more complex, intellectually and emotionally demanding venture. In Shakespeare’s King Henry IV, Falstaff proclaims that Discretion is the better part of valor. Indeed it is. It goes without saying that openness often requires a degree of valor, but discretion discourages us from the kind of blind courage that feeds good intentions but may, ironically, leave all unsatisfied and wanting.

My personal wish for our country, our communities and schools? That we move forward–mind, heart, and soul–in discretionary openness. I would really like to see where this might take us.

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October 11, 2016

The Sanctuary of Dilemma

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Dilemma: a difficult decision, a quandary, a predicament

It may seem counterintuitive to laud dilemma, to consider it sanctuary-worthy. Yet, The Sanctuary of Dilemma is alive and worthy of its place among other sanctuaries. For those willing to enter, it offers a full-body workout. Clinched fists and jaws, adrenaline rushes, pacing, trembling, pounding, head-scratching. And that’s just the physical stuff. Pondering, analyzing, fixating, obsessing, wrestling–that’s the mental stuff. Yearning, seeking, tempering, testing, loving and losing. The soul stuff.

Just the other day I reread William Stafford’s poem, “Traveling Through the Dark.” For the past forty years as an English teacher, this poem has been one of my go-to poems. In it, Stafford presents his dilemma:

Traveling Through the Dark
Traveling through the dark I found a deer
dead on the edge of the Wilson River road.
It is usually best to roll them into the canyon:
that road is narrow; to swerve might make more dead.
By glow of the tail-light I stumbled back of the car
and stood by the heap, a doe, a recent killing;
she had stiffened already, almost cold.
I dragged her off; she was large in the belly.
My fingers touching her side brought me the reason—
her side was warm; her fawn lay there waiting,
alive, still, never to be born.
Beside that mountain road I hesitated.
The car aimed ahead its lowered parking lights;
under the hood purred the steady engine.
I stood in the glare of the warm exhaust turning red;
around our group I could hear the wilderness listen.
I thought hard for us all—my only swerving—,
then pushed her over the edge into the river.
What to do with the dead doe and her fawn–alive, still, never to be born? In my classrooms, I’ve had indignant students who have insisted that Stafford could have saved the fawn. How? I asked. The responses never ceased to amaze me. Well, he could have taken the deer to the vet. [In the back seat of his car? On his back?] He could have performed a c-section and delivered the fawn. [With what? Fingernail clippers? A pocket knife? Tire iron?]  And there have been equally indignant students who have argued that the entire poem could be reduced to a single line: I found a dead deer and pushed her into the river. The Reader’s Digest condensed version of Stafford’s poem, to be sure.
But I probed, asking students if they had ever had to take a dying pet to the veterinarian to be euthanized. Without fail, most had at some point in their lives. I probed on: And could you reduce your experience to a single statement? My dog was dying, so I had him put down. Incredulous, students insisted that, of course, one statement could never represent such an experience. I continued. But you could have kept your pet alive? Again, most students shook their heads and conceded that they had waited, hoping for a miracle, but in the end, they simply could not–in spite of their own love and desire–bear to watch their pet suffer. So it was a dilemma, I saidSpend a few more weeks, days, moments with your pet or take him to the vet to end his suffering. 
The Sanctuary of Dilemma often comes with great cost. As we wrestle with choices, as we contemplate the consequences of our decisions, we must often lose ourselves to find the better way. Anyone who has faced the dilemma of ending a life–animal or human–knows this all too well. It is not about self-service, and herein lies the rub: we may lose a part of ourselves as we lose someone or something else.
At its core, the Sanctuary of Dilemma is founded on initiation. American author, William Faulkner, initiates his readers through the painful, but necessary, initiations of his protagonists. In his short story, “Barn Burning,” a young Colonel Sartoris Snopes (Sarty) travels with his father, Abner Snopes, his mother and sisters, from farm to farm, in search of work. Abner, a revengeful working man, has a reputation for being a barn burner. In angry response to what he considers wrong-doing and disrepect, he has burned the barns of previous employers. In the opening scene of the story, Sarty accompanies his father to court, where the judge doesn’t have enough evidence and ultimately cannot rule against him, even though it is clear that Abner did, indeed, burn Mr. Harris’ barn. As he sits in court, Sarty knows what his father has done and wrestles with this truth.
Later that evening, Abner confronts Sarty: You were fixing to tell them. You would have told him.  He strikes him with the flat of his hand and says: You’re getting to be a man. You got to learn. You got to learn to stick to your own blood or you ain’t going to have any blood to stick to you. In the Sanctuary of Dilemma, Sarty must choose between blood and principle. When his father, once again, sets out to burn another employer’s barn, Sarty chooses principle, running to warn the landowner of his father’s intentions and then continuing to run away. Away from his father and family, from blood and home. Faulkner writes:
He [Sarty] went on down the hill, toward the dark woods within which the liquid silver voices of the birds called unceasing – the rapid and urgent beating of the urgent and quiring heart of the late spring night. He did not look back.
Sarty’s initiation from naivety to awareness, from ignorance to truth, from childhood to adulthood is costly but necessary for one who chooses principle over blood. He must run; he must not look back. In the Sanctuary of Dilemma, it may be this way, for initiations push us forward. The consequences of our choices live solidly in the future.
Those who have lived in the Sanctuary of Dilemma know that the landscape is rough and challenging, wholly uninhabitable for those who whose only experience is with preference. Preference is choosing a paint color for your bedroom. Preferring sage to beige is not dilemma-worthy. Some may dramatize their agonizing choices over decor, clothing, vehicles, homes, etc., but, in the end, these are merely dramatized preferences–not dilemmas.
Full-body workouts in the Sanctuary of Dilemma can yield positive results. After thinking hard for all of us, Stafford pushed the deer over the edge into the river. This thinking, this hand-on-the-deer moment, matters deeply. For in this moment, Stafford joins with the deer and natural world, becoming us. In this moment, it is not just about him. And in this moment of poignant connection and contemplation, he gains through loss. Sarty, too, loses his family, but gains a future in which he can live rightly in the clear spring light of his principles and liquid silver voices of the birds.
In the Sanctuary of Dilemma, one may hear these liquid silver voices, knowing that he has chosen well and will, one day, choose well again.